I apologize for not reading and commenting as much as I should. I mean, I don't have a computer, but the library is just a walk away and it's open every day (except Monday [What the fuck?]) but I still can't be bothered to take a stroll down and see what's up online. I'm not saying that I'm going to commit to coming to the library more often and read LJ, but I am apologizing for it.

There was sort of an encore performance of "You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown" last night, and they didn't get the spotlights in time, so I was in charge of using a light switch to turn on and off a set of lights on stage. It made me feel more included, as I was backstage, as opposed to being back behind the audience. After the performance, we had a Cast/Crew party in the Gnemmi Castle, where we had pizza and soda, and watched "Hook," which was better than I thought it was going to be. Tonight, there is going to be another party, but for all "teens" involved with the theatre group. What a good weekend.

I reserved a copy of Twilight at the library, so I'll hopefully be reading it by week's end. I doubt that I'll have it finished by the time the movie comes out, so I'll probably end up waiting until the DVD release, unless someone is willing to go with me the day after I finish it. I feel like a jerk for procrastinating about it for so long, but I'm glad that I'll finally be able to read it.

Speaking of Twilight, there is this girl who goes to my school, and for the longest time, she has reminded me of someone, but I could never put my finger on who. Now, I realize that she reminds me of Kristen Stewart, only, this girl has dark hair, which she purposefully messes up, and she has this insane lip piercing. She's kind of gross, and kind of intriguing at the same time.

I've made the decision to start watching more musicals in order to bring some culture into my life. I don't know where to start, though, and I don't know where to watch/get them. There are so many that I want to see, but how? I doubt the library has any, and the only musicals that would be at the movie rental place are "Across the Universe" and "The Producers," which I've seen already.

*Looks up Twilight in IMDB in another tab*
Nikki Reed? I've been in love with her for the longest time! Oh wow!
*/Twilight*

Some strange little girl sitting two computers over just gave me a note with her MSN address. Should I add her?

This weekend is the weekend for work. First off, I have to go and pass out resumes to many businesses today in hopes of a part time job. I came to the library to print off copies, but I got sidetracked with FaceBook and LiveJournal, but after this post, I'm off to apply at places. Man, this is going to be a lot of walking.

Also, I have a million things I have to do for English class. There are a bunch of assignments that I have overdue (half of which, I didn't even know I had to pass in) and Dr. Van Zoost has given us an Amnesty Day (Monday, the 10th) where we can pass assignments in for points, and after that, late shit is worth zero. I think it's a swell idea, because if it were not for this day, I would probably fail that class.

I've been so emo about things lately. I just need to write a song or something. I suppose the biggest thing is something that started on Halloween. I went Halloweening with Megan, Jasmine, Jake, Kevin, Kerri, Malcolm, Mitchell, and Dykens. We collected canned goods for the food bank. Anyway, it was then I realized that I still have strong feelings for Megan, and that when I broke up with her, it was probably because I hadn't ever had a real girlfriend and so I freaked out. I was planning on an attempt to get back together with her on Halloween, but out of nowhere, she starts getting close with Kevin. I decided to back off, and let her be happy with him, but I was so depressed about it for the entire weekend. On Monday, during my free period, I sat with the usuals, which included Jake (I guess I should mention here that I have a giant crush on this guy, and we've become closer, but all signs point to straight). He confessed that he, too, was going to try and form a relationship with Megan on Halloween, and he said to Kevin "If you don't, I will." and so Kevin did. What a crazy situation, for us all to have feelings for the same girl, but Kevin wins. Anyway, yesterday, talking to Megan's brother, I learned that Megan had/has feelings for Jake, and she likes Kevin, but not as much. I told her brother what Jake said and he said that he was going to tell Megan, so she would break up with Kevin (which she is contemplating on anyway) and start dating Jake. This makes me feel terrible for Kevin. I don't know if he actually said something, though, because she didn't bring anything up when I was hanging out with her last night, although I asked her "Where's Kevin? Doesn't he want to watch movies with us?" (We were watching horror movies with newly-formed-power-couple, Cassandra and David [who I call Garry Davidson because his name is David Garrison, and it's fun]) and she said that he didn't want to and that he wasn't into horror movies, but something about the way she said it makes me think that she didn't even talk to him about it. I later learned from Cassandra (Megan's best friend, and my confidante) that Megan told Kevin that she needs to think about her feelings over the weekend. I feel so bad for the kid, I really do, but I suppose it's better if she dates Jake so they can both be happy. The problem is: Kevin and Jake are also really close friends, so I'm thinking this might cause a rift. AHHH. It's terrible how I'm obsessing over this situation, and I'm barely a part of it. Does that make me a bad person?